I understand now, the effort you had to put in preparing a lecture and I realize how much you strove to keep us engaged in a class, not letting our disinterested demeanour hinder the pathway of knowledge.
Now, i know that the concern you shared was sincere, and that you, despite an apparent repulsion from the students, persisted in believing that we cared enough to listen.
Now, when I see a class from the other side of the room, I try to see my students through the eyes of my teachers. Like my teachers, I see the hopes and despair, virtues and vices, and try to raise my students towards the light, by instilling in them the love to learn.
And, like my teachers, i too do not expect power, gifts or gratitude, but just a little space in the heart of my students; so that, when they prepare their first lecture and face the class, they shall pause a moment, and remember me.
Wishing a Happy Teacher’s Day to all my respected teachers.